ok so is it bad that i am into week two of 5 months w/ my little guy and i am NOT wanting him to hit the milestones that are just around the corner? last saturday morning i woke up to this:
(insert video of Marcus trying to have micah sit up)
for a split second i had to calm myself down. i found myself thinking what?! how dare you?! he's not ready to sit up yet! ...then i realized: there's no holding this kid back!
milestones this month are BIG ones. and from what i hear, they come like waves and before you know it, he's crawled across the room and vaccuumed just about every single piece of anything you were meaning to get off the floor for the past month.
key milestones that are just around the corner(which i am surprisingly NOT looking forward to----i can't explain it....i seriously always thought i'd be excited but im kind of sad)
1) sitting up on his own. ok so here's a confession: my little guy and i are both lazy when it comes to tummy time. he hates being on his belly and i'm too much of a softy. i can only take his little whimpers for so long. (see future belly time post). at 5 months and 1.5 weeks he is sitting up with assistance. almost w/out as seen in the previous video. here's the thing: i know if i focused on that for 1 week he'd have it down packed. BUT, my complexity: after that comes all other major milestones that aid his mobility...and I just wanna freeze time and enjoy my little cuddle bug! very selfish, i know!
2) eating solids. im partially excited for this, but mostly anxious. first and formost, i must say, I LOVE LA LECHE LEAGUE (see future post about my LLL experiences thus far) !!! i've been able to feel a part of a great support group of amazing and well experienced women who have informed me/given me some great tips that i'll gladly take over conflicting books. breastfeeding has been our saving grace. he gets all the nutrients needed from me, and i have a piece of mind knowing only i can provide for him in this manner----and it costs us: NOT A DIME! ;)
so here's my complexity: and im being straight up...i can barely keep myself well nourished! yes, sadly...i finally stepped out of survival mode after month 3 of having the little guy. flash backs of those all too familiar moments where, before i knew it, marcus was home asking me what id eaten today, and all i could do was stare blankly and respond "ummm...i haven't even made it to the bathroom today," come to mind. i consciously have to remind myself to eat , and eat healthily too, not just my blue bell cookies and cream ice cream fixins. truth is, the benefits of breastfeeding have been all too wonderful for us really. he's a solid 22 pounder finding all he could ever need in my bosom without me calculating when and what to give him at what time. that, i think, is what brings me the most anxiety. i know it may sound bizzar to some, and i know i'll snap into mommy mode researching and studying out all the best baby food makers/food processors/recipes out there but for right now we are gladly basking in our all too easy, all too convivient EBF Micah and mommy time =)
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