the Help

i've been m.i.a and this is why:

i devoured it.

every.single .word.

i must say i have a confession: when i read books voluntarily, i get sucked in 100%. not even joking about it either. i once read a book, and while reading it, broke up with my then boyfriend/ now hubb-o twice because the main character and her boo were going through an emotional roller coaster. it's sad. i know. but i seriously can't avoid it. i get so emotionally invested that not only do some pages look like they're a glimpse of my journal (im an avid note taker), but i totally find myself relating the main character's experiences to those in my own life. my poor hubb-o he's got to put up with my investment. it can be torturous.

ie: nappily ever after--the infamous book that had my then boyfriend/2 months
away from being my fiance/now hubb-o , mr. mccoy, going bazerk-o trying to
figure out my emotional schizo tendencies. 2 break ups due to hair later
(it's about hair---long story) a couple more blah-di-blah-blahs and a
wedding later and he's stuck w/ me for-everrrr(double smiley face)!

anywhooo...yeah so i remembered how much i absolutely LOVE good reads. i love being in the thick of it all, enthralled by every ounce of detailed description. reading so intently that i all of the sudden stop looking ahead to see how many more pages til the next chapter
and simply enjoy the stream of thought until before i know it it IS another chapter. i love finding myself chuckling out loud (where ever i am), screaming ha!s or what the whahhh!s every now and then (and sometimes getting shuuushed for it ---not unusual for me--im an avid loud talker adn thus get shushed often), but mostly gaining a new perspective, allowing myself the opportunity to pause and enter wholeheartedly into another's frame of reference and mind. what a treasure, really.

and thus: twenty thumbs up for The Help. i loved every angle it was written in (3 different perspectives all telling the same story--genius), the raw emotions evoked and mostly the daring nature of it all. the humanity behind it. the fact that situations like these were once REALITY for many in this nation. and that there were brave individuals who saw the status-quo and sought to challenge it. i could not phathom living in such a way, loving through so many barriers, and feeling---i wonder what i would feel---- in such a time as this. daringly being a "radical" like Skeeter in this era, wanting to surround myself with the likes of gentle brilliant souls as Aibileen (or even better BEING as brave as her) and wanting a best friend like Minny to go through life with. i often wonder what my OWN reality would have been, especially in this nation. i'd like to think i would have chosen to model such bravery. that i would have had the vision to act and the hope to defy all that was stacked against me. all in all i haven't found myself this intrigued since my last toni morrison read. impressive and definitely going up as a fav.

as for my patient, loving hubb-o, he has his wife back. one hundred percent presente =)